This Is Me

This is me,
Struggling with depression,
Compulsive self-harm,
and an eating disorder.

I have been bullied by friends for 10 years,
raped by a cousin for 4,
made fun of by peers,
and isolated by everyone.

I’m fighting my battle with grades,
Where a single slip up could terminate my scholarship
And I’m breaking underneath all of it.

The day will never come
When I wouldn’t binge-eat and throw up,
Won’t think of sharpeners as anything more than for pencils,
I would finally regain my confidence as a performer.

It’s so far away from me…
And I don’t think I can hold on any longer…