I hate having a good night that looked threatened by a douche bag at one point and then turned out to be amazing anyway…. And then suffering the mood plummet from a perceived betrayal by a friend. I know she’s not betraying me but ...Read More

Back again

Its been over a year, my heart was happy my mind at peace. I thought i had won my war against those inner monsters. I thought they were locked up, deep down inside. and then, with practiced ease they arose. out of the blue ...Read More

I’m drained

I jokingly call myself a half-breed. Grew up and went to high school in one of the bigger cities but spent as much free time as possible on my grandparents Farm 75 miles away from the city which is an hour and a half ...Read More


It really sucks when you know that you are inadequate for your spouse.I do feel that my spouse is still longing for someone in her past.We do not have sex regularly.It’s as if I have to get down on my knees and beg for ...Read More

Mirror Mirror

Its been 2 years since I first realized that the battle I am fighting is bigger than me. 2 years since I surrendered and admitted that I need help. It is hard to fight when the villain is hiding deep inside your psyche that ...Read More

Don’t Even Know Anymore

I just don’t know what to do anymore. I’ve always had depression and anxiety problems but they haven’t been like this since I was a teen. I often feel like I’m not actually supposed to exist. Sometimes I feel like I can’t even tell ...Read More


Hey so I just wanted to post something maybe hoping I’m not alone, so I’m on my anti depressants and their working which is great i guess but I’m sorta missing the darkness I dealt which depression mo ...Read More


Why? What’s the point? If it wouldn’t effect my kids I’d do it. To be at peace. Finally free. The memories of my childhood. Waking up every single night, multiple times, totally locked. Every muscle in my body contracted. Spending an hour or more ...Read More


I hate everything about myself. I cry too often because I can’t take all the pain of this world. Literally everything that happens around me affects me negatively. And I’m stupid. Recently wrote my finals and almost every night I wrote a suicide note ...Read More